This is the first time in my adult life that I don't have a job--I'm not even looking for one. I just stay at home with my sweet baby girl. Quite frankly, I still can't imagine leaving her with anyone...although on the flip side it sometimes pains me NOT to work. But that was the plan, so I just suck it up and go with it...and being a stay-at-home-mom can be quite stressful. My baby girl has been having a little bit of a hard time lately, so she's not sleeping well. She's learning new things every day which makes watching her every move so important. She rolls and scoots everywhere. If she wants to go somewhere, she'll find a way to get there. The other day I was thinking about how little time I actually have to myself. For example, yesterday...Sunday...I went to the bathroom...by myself. (I usually sit Liliana in there with me). Daddy was in the other room watching her, so I took my time in the bathroom. It was surprisingly really nice to just have a few moments to myself. So I guess what I mean to say is sometimes having a kid can be exhausting...Although I should point out that I do think it's easier then having a job. I rarely get dressed because I'm home all day...I eat whatever I want whenever I want (I don't have to wait for "lunch time") and I get to play with the CUTEST baby all day.
But with that said, I know my husband is under an enormous amount of pressure and stress. AND he doesn't even let on just how much stress and pressure he feels. He studies 12+ hours a day...we literally see him maybe, maybe 2 hours a day...Liliana sees him less. Since Lili has been having her sleeping problems (and she still sleeps in our room) my husband sleeps in what will be her room. (I'll transition her in January). He leaves before we get up so we don't see him in the morning and he gets back well after dark. AND his tolerance for things in lower. Life in Law School is completely different than undergrad. The stakes have never been higher.
Needless to say, I'll be happy when his finals are over with, and I'll have 5 whole weeks of just me, him, and Liliana. He works hard, and we sure do love him. Liliana LOVES him...I'm sure this will all be worth it when all is said and done!
I'm sure it is worth it too but it is hard being a "single" stay at home mom with the hubs gone all the time. I hope you have a group of other mommies you can get out with. And especially with your little one, the couple years will pass by so fast! Then you can move to Orange County!!! Yay!
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